you sit there in your heartache, waiting on some beautiful boy to save you from your old ways

well, that didn't go according to plan. give up izz? yeah, do it. we both know he's too good for you; you're only worth drunken thirty year old men.

oh, and banana boy. he was texting me the other night, he told me he loved me. i thought he was drunk, apparently not so. he confuses me; i was completely crazy about him and i pushed him away. he went through this massive 'depressive stage' that he said was because of me. but how can that be? we are both only sixteen! way too young to fall that hard and that fast. what shall i do? it was nearly a year ago we were together, do i really want to drag all that up again? also, he really hurt me. he completely messed me around, but i could have delt with that. this is the song he sent me to describe how he felt:

It starts with
One thing, I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind, I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It’s so unreal
Didn’t look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on but didn’t even know
Wasted it all just to
Watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
One thing, I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind, I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I’m surprised it got so far
Things aren’t the way they were before
You wouldn’t even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end
You kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There’s only one thing you should know
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There’s only one thing you should know
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter